Confinement starts....

...السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته

Expect the unexpected they say? Yes.  الحمد لله  at exactly 38w+1d (basically the start of my maternity leave) 16 Zulkaedah 1435H / 11 September 2014 @ 09.08 am, I have safely given birth to our beautiful Little Miss S and she weighs 3.31kg !! Abt 300g extra than her brother... 

Unlike the previous birth, the show was different this time around and here's how it went ... (apologies to all as I may have put in too much info this point onwards)

5am : slight tinge of bloody show (no contraction), don't want to start panicking cos it's just a tinge and not even look like a mucus plug (jelly like discharge). So I forewarned my husband to not silent up his phone on his way to work as it may be 'time' .... confident banar kami thinking that I will deliver the baby at noon the earliest.

6am : bloody show + mucus plug. Very jelly like and sticky, unlike the normal vaginal discharge. Almost like darah beku yang keluar, no contraction just yet but my heart tells me to prep myself. Mandi, breakfast and texted my eldest sis to standby jua in case my husband inda sempat balik. I was still in relax mode.. al-maklum, baru jua 1st day ML. And from what I read, the active labour is different for each individual, some may take days after the 'show' and some immediately. And in my case.... 

630am : started to feel slight abdominal cramp, you know, the ones you felt during menstruation. Bearable but nonetheless, I began to take note of the time interval (15mins apart) Baru selesai mandi ni around this time... and then texted my hubs to inform him that it's a possibility that I am experiencing contraction sudah walaupun mild. One thing i learnt from my Mother frm my previous labour was to calm down no matter what! Packed my personal things, i.e toiletries, hp charger, minyak panas etc. Had my breakfast.. now, I know I needed the energy but was unable to finish it up!!

8am : started to feel THE contraction .. basically, the only reason why I couldn't finish my breakfast. Final checks on the things I need to bring to the hospital and by the time I'm done, my contractions was very close... didn't really check the time pasalnya sakit yang teramat sudah. I meant to call my sis but my instinct tells me to call my husband and fortunately he was already back at home, and that was already 835am.

835am : good thing about living here in KB is that, the hospital is pretty near to our place.. 5 mins drive tops. I prayed that no accidents or any road closure along the journey to SSBH else, entah teberanak dalam kerita kali eh!

As soon as we arrived at the hospital, and a blessing too! We were helped by an elderly man who was waiting for his wife (working at the hospital) at the emergency entrance..

Elder Man : mengapa wang... kelam kabut usulmu ni...

Husband : pebinian kan beranak paci.... 

Elder Man : bah tabak saja parking disini, ambil semua barang.. aku ngambilkan kerusi ah...

Immediately, rushed in and fetched us a wheelchair. Hubby helped me out and off we went to the ante-natal ward / labour room. The man and my husband was pretty helpful with constantly reminding me to recite all the dzikrullah and selawat... الحمد لله

I honestly think we caused quite a chaos that morning, because it was during the doctors doing their rounds in the ward and we entered like, 'I'm in LABOUR!!! HELLPP!!!' Now, I was exaggerating on that part..but my facial expression said it all...~ Two midwives attended me at the treatment room, and guess what? I was almost fully dilated! They rushed me off to the labour room (skipped stage 1 and 2!) where they had me changed into the hospital gown, immediate prep everything to assist on the delivery... Yes- to D-E-L-I-V-E-R !!  The nurse calmly informed me with the procedure they're gonna do...

Nurse #1 : ok, bila kita rasa sakit bagi tau ah... I have to pecahkan air ketuban kita since fully dilate sudah. (I'm like- WHAT?? Fully dilated.. no wonder sakit berabis!)

And when they did that...

Nurse #2 : since this is your 2nd delivery, if possible kami ndakan menggunting ni ah....

Me : Err- Gunting apa tu?

Nurse #1 : gunting.. mcm masa kita mula2 dulu....

Then it clicked me... episiotomy!! hahaha phew.. I was glad on skipping that part

Nurse #1 : Kami tolong kita ni...through the delivery process. إن شاء الله

And so like the first experience.. the instruction is 'kalau sakit, push.. and tarik nafas perlahan-lahan but as maximum as possible bila nda...' With my husband by my side, 3 pushes and shivering thighs, I have safely delivered our baby girl, now nicknamed Little Miss S. Nothing can describe how I felt after that, I was in disbelief the whole day!! Everything happened so fast... and syukur ke hadrat Allah SWT kerana mempermudahkan segala urusan that day! Funny bit is.. after Husband mengazankan Little Miss S.. ada tia kena panggil to pindahkan our car sal ada ambulance *lol* What a day it was...

Now, it's been 11 days since her birthday..الحمد لله and Little Miss S is fully breast-fed so far. *smiles* A new journey begins...

Until next time.. xoxo~

... @ 12 months

Yesterday was Baby.I's 12 months appointment and we were late!!! Haiyoooooo~

Reached the clinic at ard 9.00am. *worried much* cos it's almost Baby.I's naptime and his cranky mode was ON!! Alhamdulillah ngam masa we came to the clinic, inda ramai orang. Placed his card on the counter, weigh him (he's 10.2 kg now) and gained alhamdulillah walaupun sikit. His weight has been constant since he was 6 months.. 9.5, 9.6, 9.8 like that~ Padantah dulu atu bolat banar usulnya! *lol* He's getting taller.. Alhamdulillah... everything is according to the range lah. 

Few mins after, kana called in (no queue to my surprise.. nda ramai orang ani bah!!) and the nurse did some checks, Alhamdulillah Baby.I is developing well. 

- Can he understands when being called? 

- Can he say 'mama' 'babah' 'mamam' etc all the simple things? 

- Walk / Cruise? 

Oh he cruises alright! If he's not holding on to our sofa, he moves around the crib simply just by holding my pinky. I hardly have the chance to sit down and read! Confirm d tariknya my hand kan dipimpinnya jalan2.. hehe toddling soon eh Baby.I? 

Nurse ckp insya-Allah inda lagi batah tu... then told me that today will be the MMR and Hib injections on both arms!!! Suspen giler... tot dua2 on both arms... rupanya, MMR one side, Hib on the other... hoookaayyyy~~ Hilang panic sikit and as expected, Baby.I cried but just when the nurse put the needle in, sudah siap...diam tia. Kan di ambilnya plang injection ah...!! So he is really not afraid of the needle or pain, just hates the idea of being hold by force when the session is carried out. *senyum kambing* Hehe ada2 saja lah budak ni... Mama knows you're a strong boy.... injection is nothing! The challenges and responsibilities you will face in this world as a man... now that's something. Mama do'akan that you will always be in Allah's right path... *Amin*

The whole appointment session took us 30 mins only.. and that's record breaking for someone who came late for their appointment. Must've been a slow day at the clinic yesterday... Alhamdulillah, syukur atas memudahkan urusan kami ya Rabb! :)

Until next time... xoxo~

... 10 months ...

Assalamualaikum,

Remembering back few years ago when I first started my personal blog. I was in my Uni years *i think* Sometimes I post sad stories and sometimes happy ones.. well- we all do. This entry will be a mix of both.

I have been keeping a secret from everyone the past few month(s). I was pregnant. It was unexpected but alhamdulillah for giving me the chance to conceive again... eventhough Baby.I was just 7 mths back then. Lots of things came into my mind masa atu, can I cope menjaga two little ones at one time, Baby.I and the new bub? Anxious too! Hoping this time around it will be a girl... but all that is left is just hope.This somehow made me realise, nothing in the world lasts forever. Allah may give you something but He may also want to take it back whenever He wishes to. Aku redha dengan ketentuanMu ya Allah.....

Last Saturday, exactly 11.30pm I had a miscarriage. I can feel it coming plg sudah because I was on a fever (39+) since Wednesday. I couldn't get up... can barely walk, my head feels sooo..hmmm~ how to say yea... sakit lah basically~  Friday had my spotting, nervous cos I've seen this before (my 1st pregnancy fyi) and the ending is not what everyone would ever want. I went quiet the whole day, hubby brought me up to ER and I got myself admitted. Bleeding went on and heavier till Saturday afternoon when I actually start to feel the contraction... ya Allah, it was an emotional moment. I was in pain, visiting hours was still few hours away, I want my husband to be there, I miss Baby.I, I'm scared that I'm gonna lose my little one, I'll be experiencing D&C... I felt so helpless. I have never felt that way before and since I was put in an isolation room due to my fever, I cried. 

I was abit calm when hubs came and told him that there's no hope lagi, it will happen... and it did at 11.30pm (again I was alone with just the nurses around) around that time inda lagi terasa any contractions but just feeling of wanting to go to the restroom and then, there it went into the toilet bowl (good thing I didn't flush). The baby was still a size of a little kitten... *damiiitnyaaaa* sad and sakai I was at the same time when the nurse showed me my baby and placenta... kesian lah usulnya... The doctor oncall that night did a scan and there were pieces of my placenta still left inside my uterus hence, last Sunday. I had a D&C. First time to be given anaesthetic, first time entering and O&T .... feeling is not that scary at all... Alhamdulillah~ The procedure went well and boy, was I sleepy the whole day! *lol*

Alhamdulillah, maybe Allah has His reason for all of this. Setiap apa yang berlaku mesti ada hikmah disebaliknya. Maybe Baby.I is not ready to share our love and attentions... just maybe. Insya-Allah, another rezeki will come, maybe in a different form... wallahuwa'lam.

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On another note, TODAY is Baby.I's 10 month's!!!! Two more months til he's ONE!!! Mummy is all excited because she has something planned for Baby.I and the family in November.  Can't wait!! So far he's two pair of teeth, a pair di atas and a pair di bawah.... he babbles a lot and abis semua kan digigitnya! *lol* He can get himself up to a standing position by himself and is now learning to make tiny steps (with support ofcourse) ... adoooorable!!!

HAPPY 10 MONTHS SAYANG ....... MAMA & BABAH LOVE YOU SO MUCH !!! 

GROW UP WELL AND GROW UP STRONG.

on being admitted @ the hospital..

Yeap! That's what happened to me the 2nd week of Syawal. It's was an experience which I bet, only few encountered. 

I was admitted for my complain of severe abdominal pain. It was the whole abdomen when it first started but by the time I brought myself to the emergency the pain localised itself to the 'right' side. Good thing I brought it sooner (well, I can't stand the pain jua... couldn't get up from the bed!!)

So many things were playing in my head. I am just 28wks... what could it be?? Yang mahalnya, sampat lagi surfing tu mencari facts on what causes the pain? Was it early labour? Knowing I had a case before, the pain even brought me flashbacks!!! Positively thinking, I assumed that it's salah urat due to muscle stretching.. but as the little one moves, kicks.. macam mikin sakit jua and my tummy was THAT tense!! Hard to describe really but yes, I was in a lot of paaaiiinn!!! Good thing I remember the 5-1-1 rule, so early labour was out of the picture *Alhamdulillah* I sooooo don't want my little one to be out that soon and being kept in SCBU... but apa2pun, berserah saja pada takdir masa atu.

Went to the Emergency after Subuh and obviously, the doctor got me admitted for treatment and observation. I had my 1st experience of getting into the labour room...which was quite nice actually. The area was clean, changing room properly maintained...it does give me the chills but I'm super duper confident that I won't be having the early labour. Oh, I'm talking about SSB Hospital KB.. Wards are similar to DPMMHAMB Hospital, Tutong. Every bay has 4 beds with 2 restrooms (1 for shower, 1 for #1 and #2). Alhamdulillah~ so either these two hospitals will do for delivery nanti *thumbsup*

My immediate checks was ofcourse the little one. Actively kicking and healthy as a baby should be hence the pain's definitely not coming from my pregnancy. The morning after my review with the doctor(s), yes, I have several doctors diagnosing me. Gynae, Paeds, Surgery... u name it! I was informed that I could be suffering an inflamed apendicitis! My mind was like, apendicitis?? Alhamdulillah~ But it doesn't stop there, they said that they will try to give me meds (ofcourse it won't affect the baby) and see if my pain subsides as this inflammation was actually giving me all the pain and may trigger my uterus into having early delivery. IF the pain subsides, I'm ok~ if it doesn't, they have to do surgery to remove my appendicitis and may also get me in preterm labour!! What choice do I have here? Again, berserah kepada takdir... if it was meant to be that way then so be it.

Alhamdulillah, within 24 hours the pain subsides..... such a relief indeed. Had to be on 'Fluid Only' diet for 24 hrs though but it's all worth it! :D :D :D The next 24 hrs went well jua...hence, was discharged the next day. Given a few days off from work but is on bedrest. Coincidentially, my MC coincides with my applied leave jua so... kira extended hols off from work lah?~ Hehehe, Alhamdulillah..

Here I am now, preparing myself for the coming to our newborn. Got my vintage 27yrs baby cot to be reused and repainted. Few items already been bought and am planning to attack Bebeland & Mothercare this weekend since, again, they're on sale till end of the month :D Wishing all the M2Bs especially firstimers like myself, a very good luck on our journey to motherhood. Til next time... xoxo~