Monday, 2 February 2015

...feeling helpless

السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته

Who would've thought the time would come when I will feel so helplessly helpless as I heard my very own child cried for us. I just have to. I must! WE MUST (as my husband said it). I didn't want to leave him with the teacher on the first day, no! Not after the loud scream and cries calling for 'Mama!!!' Arrrggghhh, must-not-give-in. Part of me kept of saying that this is normal, most young kids cried on their first day... most want their parents to be around and ALL MOM, I can confidently say, can't bear hearing the pleas of their children.

Took a lot of courage to walk away from his class that day. There I was stepping away from his classroom, anxiously thinking how good he would be behaving, how his teacher manage the whole class, how would he treat his friends... will he pee in his pants? will he eat his snacks? will he lose his things? Yes, call it paranoia! Little Mr. I has finally gone to school..

It's coming to a month after that very first day... Little Mr. I now loves going to school. Did all sort of artsy crafty school work and is a happy, happy boy! The best part is, seeing his happy face and having him hug me lovingly everytime we pick him up from school. Mama is so proud of you sayang... LOVE YOU LOADS! And Baby S too..

Pray that the both of you will be amongst the pious, always be in Allah's guidance and protections, and will always be in Allah's blessing... Amin...


It has been hectic..

السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته

HNY 2015 to all! A little bit late... and incase I missed it yet again, HCNY!

Here we are in the second month of 2015! Really? Has January gone by so swiftly?! I have not recuperated from all the hecticness! Goodness me! #toomuchexclamationmarksalready

We have finally settled in our new place *not a permanent one just yet* but Alhamdulillah! Took me only 20mins drive to and from my campus every morning, noon and afternoon. So this is how it feels like to be a full-time student AND a mother of two!!

Little Mr. I as I mentioned in the earlier post has settled in quite happily in school. Nope, not minding the fact that he is attending the afternoon session and has made friends with our new neighbour's kids whom he played with every afternoon... Baby S is coming 5 mths by end of this week and our BF-ing journey still continues *patsmyselfontheback* Alhamdulillah~ she can roll on her back now and know her Mama's schedule quite well. Don't mind dearest me during the day but at night, I'm all hers... *lol* her brother pun mesti by herside esp. when it's sleep time. Fyi, fav feeding position is lying side by side on our bed... sometimes kesian I tengok Little Mr. I, he needs me but I'm left helpless if I were to be feeding Baby S.. and despite that, he still prefers me than his father. Mothers are everything, yes? 

Since I'm back to studying, I kept on thinking how much I have change over the past decade! Yes, it has been a decade since I first entered Uni and now I'm back as a full-time research student. Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan ..insyaAllah~ May Allah guide us through this new phase of life.. Amiinnn...

Until next time..xoxo